Phobia

Hello hello! I'm back! I went to Beijing last tuesday till last sunday. It was freezing cold... I was down with stomach flu on wed's night and vomitted like crap the next day. So while the rest of the people were enjoying their meals, I was "enjoying" my plain porridge. IT WAS HORRIBLE! The worst thing when travelling besides having "big aunt" is getting sick. The feel of wanting to go home was overwhelming. BUT, now that I'm back to this teeny weeny homeland, i feel like getting out of it AGAIN! Even if I'm sick or that my "big aunt" is with me. I miss the cold weather. Miss the snow. Oh yes! Snow! We were lucky to see snow the moment we touched ground. And the tour guide said it was first! I'm so excited! My mind wanders off to Beijing now~ Singapore is so HOT! So hot that I'm down with heatstroke. Yesterday was my first day of filming for Table of Glory. Yong Ling (Campus Superstar 1) and I ran from 9am till 5pm. RAN. Not jog... Have you ever been to Kent Ridge? The slopes are considered steep. We ran up the stairs of uneven widths for many many times. I lost count. And yes RAN, not JOG. We felt terrible cos it was after lunch and the afternoon sun is not kind to us. Legs became jelly legs, hands became jelly hands. We can't give up. So we kept on encouraging each other. This morning when I woke up, my whole legs can't lift up and my hands are still like jelly. Lucky for me cos there's no filming for me... But Yong ling has.. Wonder how is she going to act man... Wish her luck... I think for 1 month, I dare not climb stairs anymore. But there are so many overhead bridges here... How? Someone carry me please...

Quick Updates

Hello everyone!

How's life?

Students are having the best part of your lives now right?

3 cheers for holidays!

Hip hip hurray X 3 !

Too bad for working adults...

We got to slog our lives throughout the year, with only a few pathetic public holidays.

So it's better to remain as a student.

Treasure!

A summary of what I've done for the past one month:

• Filming for 《团圆饭》since 24 Sep till 11 Nov (debut on 6 Jan 09)
  

  

  

I'm blessed with a crazy little sister who has made long hours of filming seemed short. I'm blessed to act along-side with my mentor-mummy too! Happy Happy filming in the freezing dusty Studio 4!!! :):):)

• Filming for 《心花朵朵开II》on and off till 2 Dec (debut on 2 Dec 08)

I'll appear on the first ep of part II, disappear and appear towards the end of it. :)

• Recording for variety show 《食福满人间》(30 Nov 08)

• Dance practices for 《45载光芒 8方贺台庆》(23 Nov 08)

• My first hosting @ Asia Pacific Food Expo yesterday evening

It was a great experience! My first hosting event! Luckily Nick 师兄was with me... He really guided me through the whole session. Thank you very much! And thanks Yijing for the pictures! :)

Well, besides work, I was quite lucky to be stung by A BEE too!

I remember it was 7.11.08.

I should be honoured huh.

Bee stings sweet stuffs.

That means...

I'm sweet!

Laugh!

It's dumb lah.

Stung me and lost its live.

Not worth it man.

I still got to go hospital just to ensure that the sting was not fatal.

What a day!

Alright! That's it for now! I will update after this sunday! :):)

Take care people!

Loves.

i've got an unique christian name!

This happened many many months ago.

A director asked me, "Do you have an english name?"

I replied without hestitating,"Don't have."

From that day onwards, my christian name is DonHaf.

It's spelt that way cos it looks more classy.

Laugh.

P.S : Please don't call me Donhaf when you see me!

My quote of the day

“Things ain't the same cos human beings change.”

Feeling emo

My hand is cold.

Trembling.

My mind is blank.

Ston-ing.

My heart is weak.

Wandering.

Will the earth stop rotating if i die?

No it won't.

Will it rain if i cry?

No it won't.

Will it shine if i smile?

No it won't.

Will it cheer if i succeed?

No it won't.

Will it...

No it will not...

I'm just an insignificant human living in this world.

I might be more valuable being an object.

YOU ARE MISSED!

各位，我有一件很重要的事要宣布。。。

我。。。

真的很想念你们！

我最近比较忙，所以没update。

希望你们能够谅解。

也希望你们过得开心。

=）

Finally and AT LAST!

Proudly presenting to you...

My FTT result slip!

I passed the test, like finally...

After 4 attempts!

Gosh~!

This is my 5th.

Suddenly don't feel proud anymore...

Quite shameful but hey!

I still feel happy!

Cos I put in hardwork this time round.

I took a cab there cos the weather was unbearable.

Reached there at around 1.15pm.

Started doing E-trial test.

Passed the first and second.

Failed the next four papers.

Oh dear I thought!

But i've got an excuse!

I had diarrhoea that morning.

I felt like running to the toilet while doing the third and fourth.

Nevermind i told myself.

I'm going to pass the real test!

I did another two sets of papers and passed them!

So it was a 4-4.

Tell you a secret!

No one is allowed to jot down notes during the E-trial test.

I was caught because I don't know.

It was very malu especially when that lady recognized me.

BUT... I took out my phone, typed the Q&A and saved them!

Immediately after the tests, I sms my friends for help.

Shhh...

I didn't copy all okay...

Just a handful!

There are 50 questions for one paper.

I did 8.

That means I practised 400 questions!

Super tiring!

Then it was the real test at 5.40pm.

I was quite nervous after failing so many times.

Hee... Luckily I've done that 400 questions.

Almost all the questions are repeated.

I just took 10 mins to complete the test!

When I see "PASSED" on the screen...

I went HIP HIP HURRAY!

I must thank the counter lady.

She encouraged me to sit for the E-trial test.

An auntie passed after completing all 10 sets.

She said, "If auntie can pass, I don't see why you can't."

So yeah!

I did it! :)

团圆饭

大家好！

我最近比较忙，所以没有update我的部落格。

不过，每当我看见你们的tags时，我的心好温暖。

因为我知道在我难过的时候，有你们从旁支持我。

告诉你们一个好消息！

我既将参与《团圆饭》的演出。

在剧中，我饰演王昱庆和陈莉萍的长女。

陈莉萍leh! 我的导师！

哈！非常期待！

希望我能把握好每一场戏。

祝我好运！

=)

我从来没有演戏的经验，所以真的很新很新。

很多时候都不知道自己在做什么。

下个星期就要开始拍《团》了。

我一定要进步！

哪怕只是一小步。

这本书是《才华》保姆寄来给我的。

前天刚收到（谢谢你！你真贴心！）。

这几天一直书不离手。

"You may play well or you may play badly; the important thing is that you should play truly."

"To play truly means to be right, logical, coherent, to think, strive, feel and act in unison with your role."

很有启发性的一本书。

我也领悟到一些道理。

希望会有帮助！

虽然脸很圆，不过我希望你们现在也在笑。

因为我要和你们分享我的喜悦。

=）

Dreaming is less painful

My goal is a dream.

It has not changed since five.

Period.

People dream.

I mean a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.

And an involuntary vision occurring to a person when awake (daydream).

Cos dream and I-aspire-to-be are different.

Dream is not as realistic as I-want-to-be-a-scientist.

But sadly, I am someone who dreams.

So to speak, I am unrealisitic and not down to earth.

I don't want to be labelled as that so I keep on trying.

Surprisingly, my dream becomes real.

I know education is important but I hate studying.

I believe I can score straight As if I wanted to.

I am a taurus with determined character.

I want to show people that I can do it my way.

I want to prove that degree holders might not be successful.

I want people to know that monetary satisfaction is inferior to passion.

I am living my life and I want to live it well.

No one can stop me!

Reality is often painful.

Unlike dreaming, you can pinch me a million times and I don't feel a thing.

All my "I want", "I believe", "I know" and "I am" become balderdash.

To all students out there, heed my advice:

Study hard if you're not smart and study smart if you've got what it takes.

(Jia you for the upcoming examinations! Exercise, eat well and sleep well.)

I always ask people to go after their dreams.

But I won't do that now.

We are living in a realistic world where you'll die without a decent certificate.

No one cares about your niche area without that piece of paper.

You better think of what you aspire-to-be and not what you dream-to-be.

You might think that my points are controversial.

Yes they are.

I'm a little confused by myself right now.

You can argue that becoming a scientist, doctor or lawyer might not be realistic as well.

Or you can debate that I-dream-to-be and I-aspire-to-be are the same as both involved hardwork and determination.

Well, you can go to www.dictionary.com and you'll know the difference.

But, my dream is not a dream because I aspire-to-be.

Alright I think I should stop here.

I'm having a perplexed state of mind now.

All I want to say now is...

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORT!

I will do my best and present my best.

Hopefully you won't switch channel when you see me on tv.

P.S. I will reply to your tag soon! Promise. :)

路，是自己走出来的。

人的一生有很多选择。

有时候感到困惑，我就会去四马路观音庙求签。

很可笑吧？

我竟然让一只签来主导自己的未来。

以前拿到'O' 水准的成绩后，我不知道该去初级学院或理工学院。

心灵不定的我就叫POA老师跟我一起去求签。

结果，观音娘娘给我的启示是去报读初级学院。

这一路走来，我遇到了“挫折”和“失败”。

它们都是我的好朋友。

没有它们，我不会变得更勇敢。

“成功”，每个人都想要碰到。

当然，我也很想拥有它。

可是，人会不会遇见它，是强求不来的。

一场比赛，只有一位赢家。

人为什么一定要争夺第一，不要好好享受过程呢？

你有看奥运会吗？

我发现当一个人跑在第一位时，他会一直看是否有人追上他。

不累吗？

为什么他就不能专注地往前冲？

因为他担心被超越。

所以说，高高在上的人一定很累。

我宁愿跑在第二位。

至少我有一个能够超越的对象。

话说回来，如果有一天能跑在第一位。。。

我会尽力地向前跑，不会转头看其他的人。

人，尽力就不会有遗憾了。

兜了一大圈，其实我想说的是。。。

宗教只是一种寄托，路还是要靠自己走出来。

不管你的选择是一、二、三或四，

只要你相信自己、全力以赴，你的努力决不会白费。

大家，加油吧！

没有标题

大家好！

感觉好像很久没跟你们聊天。

对不起。。。

我的心情糟透了！

我一直想要blog可是又力不从心。

原本是开心的一天， 因为可以和爸妈去看NDP Preview。。。

从小我就很喜欢看烟火。

不过今年有一项节目The Black Knights，让全场叹为观止。

我也不例外。

至少那项表演能让我忘记悲伤。

对了！ 惠玉姐的丈夫是表演者之一。

非常惊险的演出！

这是在出发之前画的。

八月三日：痛苦后有点喜悦

八月四日：告别苦日子，迎接快乐

八月五日：又掉进地狱

Scene 1:

I took my final theory test on the 4th.

After 2 unsuccessful attempts, i passed, finally!

It was clearly shown on the screen...

Then, i went for my 3rd driving lesson on the 5th.

My instructor asked me to book for practical test date.

So i went to counter 9 and saw that the test date is on 20 Nov.

Just nice cos my PDL expires in Dec.

But the lady said my result is not reflected in the system yet.

I went up to print my result slip.

Guess what?

It shows that i FAILED!

I'm super duper agitated and went to confront them.

The chief looked at me like i'm deceiving him.

HELL~!

One of the invigilators saw that I passed!

When i requested him to be my witness, he chickened out!

HELL~!

Forget it!

The chief said he'll look into the matter.

All I've to do is to wait for their call.

Scene 2:

Bought a new wallet on the 4th.

Found out that part of the logo is rusted.

Immediately went down to the shop to look for the sales person.

I thought can replace for a new one but NO STOCK~!

BEST!

Forget it~!

I just got to tell myself nothing is perfect...

Scene 3:

Injured my left ring finger while playing basketball.

I thought it'll be fine but it hurts. :(

八月六日：悲痛

Got the confirmation that i really failed...

44/50

Only allowed to have 5 mistakes in total.

i don't mind if initially the screen showed me "FAILED".

空欢喜一场的感觉很难受。。。

I cycled to see sinseh in the evening.

And i cycled back with only one hand.

How pro...

Anyway, it's ligament torn.

Got to live with one hand for 2 days!

Who wants to volunteer to wash my hair? Ha~!

And i can't play bball for the time being... :(

八月七日：疗伤

不能出门。。。

手废了。。。

好闷啊~！！！

Oh ya! 一定要看钱不够用2！

和“那双手” 有一样的含义。

梁导赞~！！！

我希望接下来的八月对我好多一点点。。。

在复杂的世界里追求简单

知足常乐

人，有那么容易就知足吗？

梦想成真

人，有那么容易就放弃吗？

追求完美

人，有那么容易就完美吗？

放弃完美＝知足？

我很想在这复杂的世界里追求简单。

因为简单就是美。

美，而不是完美。

我一直都相信没有人是完美的。

有时候，缺陷也是一种美。

如果这世界什么都完美无缺，那活着还有意义吗？

我很想在这复杂的世界里追求简单。

我真的很想。

可是，世界那么复杂。

我能吗？

爱，无界限。

爱爱你的人。

更要爱不爱你的人。

你做得到吗？

那双手

如果你有空，握着妈妈的手，哪怕只是一分钟。

闭上你的眼睛，慢慢感觉那双伟大的手。


当你开始在妈妈肚子里呼吸，她的双手就没有离开过你。

换尿布，喂你喝奶，抱你去走走，摇你睡。。。

你生病时，她给你无微不至的照顾。

你在学走路时，她紧紧地牵着你，担心你会跌倒。

你不听话时，她用藤条打你，希望你会学乖。

你在考试时，她忙着炖补汤，去庙里帮你请好运，一心要你成才。


那双手无时无刻在你左右。

那双手对你不离不弃。

那双手最温暖。

那双手最可靠。


岁月不饶人，你会发现那双手突然间有很多线条。。。

那双年轻嫩滑的手已经老了。

为了你，那双手忙了大半辈子。

你应该知道怎么做了吧？

Absolute Calories Burning Session

My baby Sharon brought me for 2 free-trial sessions of Hot Yoga.

We decided to sign up for more cos

We want to BURN FATS!

Basically, we do yoga in a 40 degree celsius room and that's hot yoga.

It's for deeper detoxification.

If you want to sweat it out, you got to check it out!

I love everything there except the yoga mat and shampoo.
For hygenice purpose, it's better to get your own one.

But if you can stand the smell of many people's sweat...

Go ahead.

Laughs!

The shampoo will sure attract cows to your hair...
Cos it's as dry as grass...

HAHA!

Maybe cows might not even find it appetizing...

Alright... Too exaggerating...

Really can't stand the texture of my hair man...

I am a giant

Women in action!

This looks more normal than the former

9 more sessions to go! Gambatte!

秘密

你有秘密吗？我相信每个人都有。不过，没有秘密的人应该很幸福。他们不需要担心不小心把秘密说出来的后果，也不会为了要保守秘密而产生压抑感。

我是一个不会保守秘密的人。在念小学和中学的时候，同学们常常叫我“大嘴巴”。说难听一点，我是“三八婆”。不管任何事物，我一向来都很直接，不喜欢拐弯抹角。其实，我觉得可笑的是，人很喜欢说：“嘿！我告诉你一个秘密，你不可以跟别人讲okay？” 以前， 我每次也是把这句话挂在嘴边。既然是秘密，哪里可以泄漏出去？可是，我们都有好朋友。好朋友都是我们可以信任的人。为什么有秘密不能和他们分享？做人何必做到那么辛苦？

朋友和敌友只是一线之差。感情再好的朋友，如果任何一方被出卖，就变成了敌友。既使他们是无意的，泄漏秘密通常只有不堪的结局。所以，为了阻止悲剧发生，我宁愿自己多受一点苦，也不想失去可贵的友谊。

Summer Fiesta 2008

Woohoo~!

Hello everyone! Hope you guys are doing great yeah...

I haven't been updating for quite some time. Sorry about that!

I will update more frequent! :)

It was a happening Saturday for me!
Summer Fiesta was held at Sentosa in conjunction to promote Channel 8's dramas and variety shows.

I was there to promote Love Blossoms.

Hope that you guys have enjoyed the show.

Photos to share:

My Star-Searching-mates Desmond and Jerry

两位超级辣妈 and Mikki (Ivy jie's daughter)

Two hot babes Joey and Carrie

My idols

Love Blossoms cast except for the two hunks

戏神

Aiyoyo 老师

球爱大战？哈！超好看！要看！

才华师姐Felicia

美美的Eelyn和帅帅的Ah Ben

Behind the scene

100PLUS for all and YEAH! The event was successful except for the short drizzling rain.



P.S. Sorry that I couldn't take pictures with everyone. I seek for your understanding. :) I'm really glad to see you all there! It's my pleasure that you all want to take pictures with me... Appreciate it! To Shu Min: If you are reading this, and I hope you are, thanks for the gift! I'm so jealous that YOUR handwriting is nicer than MINE! Ha! BUT... I really like it a lot a lot!

谢谢！:)